New World Dharma Talks with Grace

New World Dharma Talks with Grace

Hosted by Grace Bryant

5:15-6:15pm

*Free weekly event, Donations welcome

Due to the Covid 19 and our desire to center connection and safety, SEC is now 100% virtual!

Join us on Zoom only – https://zoom.us/j/6143346038

Password – 193027

We’re in a precious moment of pause.

For those of us on the journey of awakening and dismantling, it’s an incredibly powerful time to re-ignite spiritual teachings and intentionally lay the foundation of the New World that has been thrust upon us. Instead of waiting for things to “return to normal,” let’s get courageous and co-create the world emerging around us with the wisdom of the sages. 

Join Grace (and guest speakers) for an hour of weekly dharma talk and practice – exploring spiritual teachings and applying them to right now. Connecting to our kula, spiritual family, during this time is so crucial to the new collective shift we so deeply want. 

 

-All level of physical abilities welcome

-Kid and family friendly

-No maximum participants

 

Donations and payments can be sent to:

– Venmo:  @Melissa-SEC

– Paypal: [email protected] (via friends & family)

– Website: www.sacred-embodiment.org/donate

*Please memo the name and date of your event!

 

About the Host:

Grace Bryant

Grace (they/them, she/her) has been a whole-life educator since 2005, integrating drama, music, movement, meditation and yoga, mindful living, creative play, authentic relating, conscious collaboration, tantra and leadership. Grace is beyond grateful to have received the teachings of Nondual Tantra and the Spiritual Heart. They believe these teachings can transform the consciousness of anyone who practices them sincerely.

 

Currently, Grace is merging anti-oppression work with the vision of Advaita Tantra and the Spiritual Heart. They are committed to shifting the global culture of Tantra and Yoga teachings and helping end white supremacy culture and colonialist appropriation of these beautiful traditions. Grace draws inspiration from the original Tantra concept of kula (spiritual family) which was open to everyone and where castes, and genders could practice side-by-side. They deeply believe that Tantra is for all bodies, ethnicities, backgrounds, orientations, genders and humans which is reflected in the mission of Sacred Embodiment Community Seattle.

[email protected]

https://bewholebehappy.com

** WHAT/WHO IS SEC? **

Sacred Embodiment Community is an open community dedicated to transformation and connection using our four pillars of spiritual liberation, awakened embodiment, conscious relating and/or social change to create conscious living, conscious loving and freedom.

New to SEC? Please sign our Community Policies before attending this event. https://forms.gle/zos9MWF2wdJv9tTe9

 

About SEC:  

– FINDING US: Join us on Zoom:

https://zoom.us/j/6143346038

Password – 193027

 

Zoom now requires a password on all meetings to help keep our events safe. For this week, we’ll be using our room password, 193027. Please watch for more updated security features next week. Thank you for your continued adaptability. 

– SECURITY & EVENT ARRIVAL: We’re working on the balance between making our events convenient to access and also as secure and safe as possible. As such, we are asking participants to arrive on time, and no later than 15 minutes after their start time. Unless previously arranged with the facilitator, we will not let people in after that time.

Please know we are working on ways to have more safeguards in place for our facilitators and participants which might mean changing how you access online events in the weeks to come. We encourage you to stay up to date with our communications (via email, meetup and FB) so you are familiar with how to access your events before they begin. Join our mailing list (www.sacred-embodiment.org) for the latest updates

SECURITY & EVENT ARRIVAL – We’re working on the balance between making our events convenient to access and also as secure and safe as possible. As such, we are asking participants to be in meetings by 15 minutes after their start time. Unless previously arranged with the facilitator, we will not let people into the Zoom Room after that time.

Please know we are working on ways to have more safeguards in place for our facilitators and participants which might mean changing how you access online events in the weeks to come. We encourage you to stay up to date with our communications (via email, meetup and FB) so you are familiar with how to access your events before they begin. Join our mailing list (www.sacred-embodiment.org) for the latest updates. 

– ACCESSIBILITY: Accessibility is important to Sacred Embodiment Community. We strive to be as accessible as possible. As we shift into the virtual world, we will continue updating our accessibility information and how we create inclusivity to different needs and bodies via our online platforms. If we can support your accessibility, please email us at [email protected].

– DONATIONS: SEC is a No One Turned Away for Lack of Funds Community. We endeavor to be transparent, open and inclusive around money. Many of our events have suggested donation amounts and we encourage you to give what you can. We are a not-for-profit incorporated organization and currently all of our donations go towards our operating costs, to your facilitators or to Real Rent Duwamish as reparations for living and working on native lands of the Duwamish Tribe. Some events are free and some have fixed registration costs. Please contact us at [email protected] if you have questions about donations.

 

Donations and payments can be sent to:

– Venmo:  @Melissa-SEC

– Paypal: [email protected] (via friends & family)

– Website: www.sacred-embodiment.org/donate

*Please memo the name and date of your event!

– PRIVACY & CONFIDENTIALITY: Everyone participating must agree to 1) confidentiality of identity of community members, 2) privacy regarding participation in events, 3) release SEC from liability. New to SEC? Please sign our Community Policies before attending or when you arrive. https://forms.gle/zos9MWF2wdJv9tTe9

– SUBSTANCES: Please don’t consume alcohol or other substances that would hinder your natural state before attending SEC events.

New World Dharma Talks with Grace

New World Dharma Talks with Grace

Hosted by Grace Bryant

5:15-6:15pm

*Free weekly event, Donations welcome

Due to the Covid 19 and our desire to center connection and safety, SEC is now 100% virtual!

Join us on Zoom only –https://zoom.us/j/6143346038

Password – 193027

We’re in a precious moment of pause.

For those of us on the journey of awakening and dismantling, it’s an incredibly powerful time to re-ignite spiritual teachings and intentionally lay the foundation of the New World that has been thrust upon us. Instead of waiting for things to “return to normal,” let’s get courageous and co-create the world emerging around us with the wisdom of the sages. 

Join Grace (and guest speakers) for an hour of weekly dharma talk and practice – exploring spiritual teachings and applying them to right now. Connecting to our kula, spiritual family, during this time is so crucial to the new collective shift we so deeply want. 

 

-All level of physical abilities welcome

-Kid and family friendly

-No maximum participants

 

Donations and payments can be sent to:

– Venmo:  @Melissa-SEC

– Paypal: [email protected] (via friends & family)

– Website: www.sacred-embodiment.org/donate

*Please memo the name and date of your event!

About the Host:

Grace Bryant

Grace (they/them, she/her) has been a whole-life educator since 2005, integrating drama, music, movement, meditation and yoga, mindful living, creative play, authentic relating, conscious collaboration, tantra and leadership. Grace is beyond grateful to have received the teachings of Nondual Tantra and the Spiritual Heart. They believe these teachings can transform the consciousness of anyone who practices them sincerely.

Currently, Grace is merging anti-oppression work with the vision of Advaita Tantra and the Spiritual Heart. They are committed to shifting the global culture of Tantra and Yoga teachings and helping end white supremacy culture and colonialist appropriation of these beautiful traditions. Grace draws inspiration from the original Tantra concept of kula (spiritual family) which was open to everyone and where castes, and genders could practice side-by-side. They deeply believe that Tantra is for all bodies, ethnicities, backgrounds, orientations, genders and humans which is reflected in the mission of Sacred Embodiment Community Seattle.

[email protected]

https://bewholebehappy.com

New to SEC? Please sign our Community Policies before attending this event. https://forms.gle/zos9MWF2wdJv9tTe9

 

About SEC:  

– FINDING US: Join us on Zoom:

https://zoom.us/j/6143346038

Password – 193027

Zoom now requires a password on all meetings to help keep our events safe. For this week, we’ll be using our room password, 193027. Please watch for more updated security features next week. Thank you for your continued adaptability. 

– SECURITY & EVENT ARRIVAL: We’re working on the balance between making our events convenient to access and also as secure and safe as possible. As such, we are asking participants to arrive on time, and no later than 15 minutes after their start time. Unless previously arranged with the facilitator, we will not let people in after that time.

Please know we are working on ways to have more safeguards in place for our facilitators and participants which might mean changing how you access online events in the weeks to come. We encourage you to stay up to date with our communications (via email, meetup and FB) so you are familiar with how to access your events before they begin. Join our mailing list (www.sacred-embodiment.org) for the latest updates

SECURITY & EVENT ARRIVAL – We’re working on the balance between making our events convenient to access and also as secure and safe as possible. As such, we are asking participants to be in meetings by 15 minutes after their start time. Unless previously arranged with the facilitator, we will not let people into the Zoom Room after that time.

Please know we are working on ways to have more safeguards in place for our facilitators and participants which might mean changing how you access online events in the weeks to come. We encourage you to stay up to date with our communications (via email, meetup and FB) so you are familiar with how to access your events before they begin. Join our mailing list (www.sacred-embodiment.org) for the latest updates. 

– ACCESSIBILITY: Accessibility is important to Sacred Embodiment Community. We strive to be as accessible as possible. As we shift into the virtual world, we will continue updating our accessibility information and how we create inclusivity to different needs and bodies via our online platforms. If we can support your accessibility, please email us at [email protected].

– DONATIONS: SEC is a No One Turned Away for Lack of Funds Community. We endeavor to be transparent, open and inclusive around money. Many of our events have suggested donation amounts and we encourage you to give what you can. We are a not-for-profit incorporated organization and currently all of our donations go towards our operating costs, to your facilitators or to Real Rent Duwamish as reparations for living and working on native lands of the Duwamish Tribe. Some events are free and some have fixed registration costs. Please contact us at [email protected] if you have questions about donations.

 

Donations and payments can be sent to:

– Venmo:  @Melissa-SEC

– Paypal: [email protected] (via friends & family)

– Website: www.sacred-embodiment.org/donate

*Please memo the name and date of your event!

– PRIVACY & CONFIDENTIALITY: Everyone participating must agree to 1) confidentiality of identity of community members, 2) privacy regarding participation in events, 3) release SEC from liability. New to SEC? Please sign our Community Policies before attending or when you arrive. https://forms.gle/zos9MWF2wdJv9tTe9

– SUBSTANCES: Please don’t consume alcohol or other substances that would hinder your natural state before attending SEC events.

On Desire: Authentic Relating Games

on-desire

On desire: are you in touch with yours? Desire arises naturally within us, we do not make them up. However, we do make up a lot of stories, expectations, and fears around our naturally arising desire. We often confuse desire and need in our minds, creating even more confusion, shutting down and bypassing what often feels like a shadowy part of us- unwelcome, unhealthy, wrong. This separates us from an integral part of ourselves, leading to feelings of unfulfillment, lack of wholeness, and shame.

Tonight, we will use authentic relating games to explore our own personal world of desire, disconnection from it and any shame or fear around our desire…all the while fiercely acknowledging that no one else is expected to fulfill our desires for us.

This is an edgy topic and may be uncomfortable. And while desire is often associated with sex and our sexuality, it is much more than that. Acknowledging that edge, this evening is about getting to know our desires, and not about fulfilling those desires. This evening does not include sexual touch or any expectation that another person should be fulfilling my desires for me.

Facilitated by Grace & Keeley

** WHAT ARE AUTHENTIC RELATING GAMES? **
AR (Authentic Relating) is about what is real. It’s about what you are feeling and experiencing in the bodily felt sense. It’s about your actual thoughts and emotions in the moment, whether they be frightening, silly, sexy, or questioning. It’s about the nature of connectedness when you look into the eyes of another being.

Relating Games are a collection of experiences and activities that give participants a hands-on taste of both the joy and skills of genuine interpersonal connection. Game nights provide a lower-stakes venue to feel the power of being vulnerable in community with the aim of bringing more authentic connection into our lives every day.

Authentic Relating is a growing movement with communities around the globe gathering to connect and enrich the human experience. (https://www.authrev.com/worldwide-connection)

** WHAT/WHO IS AUTHENTIC SEATTLE? **
We are a community that is unleashing our aliveness through self-expression, connection, and bearing witness to each other.

Seattle Tantra Center plans to host monthly Authentic Relating Games nights. All are welcome to join.

Event Details:
– Address: 9414 Roosevelt Way
– Ample street parking and public transit options.
– Please arrive 15-20 minutes early to settle into the space so we can begin at 7pm. We lock the doors at 7:15.
– Cost: Donation basis $10-$40 suggested to support budding Seattle Tantra and Authentic Seattle communities. Cash, check or card accepted at the door. No one will be turned away for lack of funds. Your assistance with set-up or clean up would be most appreciated in lieu of financial support.
– Accessibility: Seattle Tantra is an accessible space. However, the bathroom does not accommodate wheelchairs. Please contact us if you have questions about how we can support your abilities.

Additional Considerations:
– Please note that Authentic Relating events are not a therapeutic setting, and the facilitators are not there in the role of counselors. If you have needs that would best be served by a mental health professional, do not consider this practice as a substitute for such care.
– Games & Circling events can facilitate people making deep connections. Not everyone brings that connected experience with them after an event. Please remember to practice everyday politeness if you reach out to someone to connect socially after an event.
– If you have any questions or concerns, please do not hesitate to ask any of the Authentic Seattle or Seattle Tantra facilitators.

Delight in the Senses

delight-in-the-senses

In Tantra, we celebrate and delight in the senses as gateways to a more expansive experience of Self. Join this fun, sensual, joyful practice class where we’ll see, smell, taste, hear and feel the Divine through our very bodies. Take home practices you can do yourself and with your practice partners to awaken your senses and know yourself even more.

$20 in advance, $25 at the door (if space allows)

No One Turned Away for Lack of Funds – please ask for discounts or volunteer opportunities

Register at: http://behappy.simpletix.com//event-detail.aspx?ShowId=39601

 

Deepening Your Practice

Deepen Your Tantric Practice

Join us at Moksha Tantra for a rare chance to be supported in deepening your practice.

A deep spiritual practice develops higher states of observation and consciousness in us, freeing us from the trance and robotic reactivity of the personal ego. Also said, it turns unconscious patterns into conscious actions and it shifts our relationship to everything in our world. This, in turn, leads to an increasingly-richer and deeper experience of every aspect of life, opening to inner radiance, clear inner guidance and the uncaused happiness that is the true nature of the soul.

In this class series, Grace & Hafizullah will offer perspectives, tools, specific techniques using sound, breath, focalized awareness, light, “deity,” and “subtle energy” for those wishing to deepen the “moksha” (liberation) aspect of their tantra practice. Through their 55+ combined years on the spiritual journey, they will share with you from their personal experience what it takes to shift into more and more liberation.

The first class on October 13th will be a chance to set-up, maintain and commit to a practice and what elements you’d like to incorporate. We’ll look at what gets in the way of committing to practice or what gets in the way of taking that practice to deeper and deeper levels. With a dedicated four-hours together, there will be time to develop or reformat your existing personal practice, connect with others and create accountability around your practice and grow in your confidence as an aspirant and Tantrika.

Saturday, October 13th, 2-6pm @ Moksha Tantra Center

Follow up classes will be scheduled in the autumn

Cost: Donations of $20-60 welcome

Register HERE!

Moksha Kirtan – A Night of Community Music

Moksha Kirtan – A Night of Community Music
Cost: Donation Only

Come sing with us! Join in the magical ritual of Kirtan, or devotional singing. All voices, songs and traditions are welcome. Grace will lead this monthly night of chanting (bhajans) to different names and forms of the Divine.

Please bring your voices, any instruments you’d like to play, and an open heart. No religious or spiritual belief is necessary to enjoy the vibration of Mantra, sacred sound, and the harmony and joy that making music from the Heart brings.

Sacred Sexuality for Liberated Lovers

Ready to be liberated in your sexuality?

If you are intrigued and excited to ask some compelling questions, uncover your potential as a lover, and tap into the depth of an integrated, whole-life spiritual journey, then come join us!

Sacred Sexuality for Liberated Lovers with Seattle Tantra teacher Grace Bryant is a full-day workshop to develop the union of sex + spirit, or sacred sexuality. The workshop will offer tools for more sacredness and presence in your sexuality and a more liberated sexuality in your spirituality. We’ll address questions like:

What does liberated sexuality feel like?

  • How does my spiritual practice lead to a better relationship with my sexuality?
  • How can I be more present, available and surrendered with my intimate partner(s)?
  • How can I ask for want I want?
  • How do I find more sacredness in my sexuality and in my intimate relationships?

Complete with rituals, theory, practical + playful exercises, and a bunch of fun ways to connect deeply with others, this full-day workshop will give you a whole new vantage point for the union of sex + spirit or sacred sexuality.

We’ll also explore the following topics both in theory and practice:

  • Embracing your own sexuality with more freedom, adventure and acceptance
  • How to crack open and be more available to your partner
  • How Tantra helps build trust in intimate relationships
  • Expanding every intimate connection beyond just the body
  • Transforming desire into reverence
  • Deepening your connection with yourself and others
  • Creating a much, much bigger capacity for love – both giving and receiving
  • Tools to become a better lover
  • Playful and connecting exercises for exploring sensuality, relationships and energy
  • Tantric Rituals & Meditation

Open to individuals and couples of all gender identity and sexual orientation. Please note there is NO nudity or sexual touch in this workshop. Come with an open heart and a willingness to explore yourself and connect with others.

FAQ’s
I’ve been practicing Sacred Sexuality for years. Is this just for beginners?
Nope. This is a foundation that can apply to anyone, wherever you are on the path. The beauty of Tantra is that it encompasses all of life and we can always learn how to bring more intimacy to places we aren’t yet aware of. Experienced practitioners are welcome and encouraged to join! If you’re curious to know more, please contact Grace.

I’m a beginner to Tantra. Will this be accessible for me?
Absolutely. This workshop will lay a foundation that can apply to anyone, wherever you are on the path. For beginners, you’ll get a set of language to start delving into sacred sexuality as well as the experience of playing (in a safe, non-genital touching space) with some like-minded and like-hearted humans. If you’re curious to know more, please contact Grace.

I’m LGBTQ+. Will the practices be relevant for me?
Oh, yes. Grace identifies as Queer and Gender Queer. She offers non-gendered work that plays with how we sit in the masculine/feminine balance at any given moment and how that changes with our different partners, life experiences and moods. We’d love to have more of our LGBTQ+ family at this workshop and at Moksha Tantra Center.

What is Moksha Tantra Center?
Moksha (sanskrit: mokṣa): liberation, emancipation, release from bondage, freedom.
Tantra: a system for awakening understanding beyond the limitations of normal cognitive thinking.
Moksha Tantra reconciles classical tantric spiritual practice with neo-tantra celebration of sacred sexuality. We are a Seattle-based community exploring the practice of freedom.

I’d love to come, but it’s a big financial stretch. Are there scholarships?
Yes. No one will be turned away for lack of funds. And, we are a non-profit organization running on your donations and event fees. Please consider how much you’re able to contribute and contact Grace to see how you can energetically support our community as well.

Cost:
Individual – $95
Couple or Bring-A-Friend – $170 for both
Polycules + Moresomes – $85 per person
Register by September 1st for a 10% discount
*Snacks and tea are included. Please bring a lunch or be prepared to grab something nearby.
No One Turned Away for Lack of Funds – please contact Grace to talk about other financial options

Surrender is Harder for Men

men meditating

by Jenny Jnani Hale

In spiritual circles, it’s fashionable to exhort women to “surrender.” The neo-Tantrics will explain that expanded orgasms lie just the other side of surrender, and that resisting surrender makes a woman “unfeminine.” Fundamentalist Christians and Muslims will point to verses requiring women to “submit” to their husbands (in exchange for protection and being guided to God, of course).

What about men? Do men get a pass in this “surrender” business?

Obviously, to reach transcendent states in which the ego is dissolved, everyone, whether male, female or gender-fluid, will need to make the ultimate surrender – relinquishing the separate self.

The oft-forgotten secret?

This ultimate surrender is waaaay easier for someone in a female body than someone in a male body, at least on average. There are always individuals who buck the trend of their biological gender.

There are spiritual traditions which make it clear that this gender difference was well-known to the ancients.

In Kabbalah, women have only two observances –  a morning consecration, and a weekly ritual of lighting the menorah on shabbat evening. These two small rituals are enough to keep a woman on track, because she is naturally much more connected to the Divine, and less likely to stray from the path. Men, on the other hand, have a dazzling array of practices designed to remind them at every turn that they are here for a Divine purpose, not for personal accomplishments.

In traditional Tantra, every woman, no matter how uneducated, is to be treated as a manifestation of the goddess of instantaneous enlightenment. In some cases, the texts go so far as to say that without the assistance of a woman, a man practicing alone can never reach the highest states of liberation.

In modern times, we can make hypotheses about why this gender difference might occur. We now have some understanding of the effects of hormones on perception and motivation, and the personal testimonials of transgender people who have experienced both versions of reality in the one body.

At the base of the gender difference are the effects of the male hormone, testosterone. Women also have some testosterone, but at much lower levels than men. Testosterone mutes the proprioceptive feedback which forms the basis of interpersonal visceral empathy. In more simple language, testosterone makes us less aware of what is happening both within our body, and within the bodies of the people around us.

Adrenaline also has this effect, which is why stressed women feel so much more isolated than women who have a lot of social support and control of their time. Studies have shown that even spiritual seekers, such as students studying to be ministers, can be made to ignore a person needing medical help if they believe they are late for an exam. Adrenaline is a gender-neutral empathy-suppressant, though. Both men and women suffer from a reduction in empathy and compassion when stressed, regardless of their baseline levels.

One of the major ways to offset the effects of testosterone is to generate more of the “bonding hormones,” such as oxytocin and vasopressin. These hormones are stimulated by physical touch, affection, emotional closeness, trust, and spending a lot of time together.

Given this hormonal recipe, it is easy to see why people in male bodies could get deep spiritual benefits from the loving presence of another person (generally assumed to be of the opposite gender, but unless that person is a highly advanced practitioner with good detachment, personal preferences, cultural taboos and sexual orientation would still play a part).

Neural entrainment is another valuable tool which has been used since time immemorial to help bridge the spiritual gap.

When two individuals consciously “connect,” with or without sustained eye contact, their brain waves synchronize. This process allows someone who is very familiar with a particular state to induce that state in another person, even if that person has never previously experienced that state. In spiritual circles, this is referred to as “initiation”, and is often supported by rituals, which subconsciously encourage the person to be open to receive the new state.

When men are initiated into deeply connected states of consciousness by women, they can attain the same effects as monks who have meditated alone in caves for years on end, within a very short span of time.

In our Western culture, however, we glorify the ruggedly individualistic state in which the average man finds himself. Mainstream media encourages women to “lean in,” to adopt more individualistic traits, to be less receptive and empathetic, and put their own interests first, in order to “make it” in an economy organised around individual men. We lack language to express the ways in which people rise together to accomplish things beyond what can be accomplished as isolated individuals, and we attribute successes to individual leaders, not to well-interconnected teams.

Even in spirituality, the vast majority of publicly visible spiritual leaders are in male bodies. There are more books by male spiritual teachers than females. The work of female spiritual leaders and teachers is often misattributed to their male teachers or disciples. Looking at the available corpus of works and biographies from spiritual leaders, one could be forgiven for thinking that spirituality is generally a masculine pursuit, with women only contributing via fundraising, housekeeping/secretarial services for the Great Leaders (being their consorts in non-celibate traditions), and cleaning the houses of worship.

It is almost impossible for someone raised in such a culture to spontaneously realize that the average woman starts her spiritual journey several stations down the track from where the average man starts, simply by virtue of her biology.

So, if you find yourself in a female body, in a spiritual tradition or community run by men, this is your get-out-of-jail-free card. Your inherent connection with the people around you, and your inner wisdom, will be of more use to you than following instructions that are designed by men for men.

Does a particular practice feel rigid, constraining, or limiting? Allow yourself to explore what happens when you gradually release arbitrary constraints. Do you find yourself sinking deeper into communion, or does the laxity allow you to get distracted?

This is not carte blanche to declare yourself to be your own guru, and not in need of teachers any more. Everyone needs guidance, as the pitfalls on the spiritual path are many and varied.

This is simply a reminder that if you are in a female body, you might not need to do so much, or such highly structured practice, in order to reach the same results as someone in a male body might require. Sinking in may benefit you more than pushing through. Connecting with the Universe may work faster than seeking to transcend it. Honoring your inner wisdom may be more effective than painting by numbers.

And if you are in a male body, you just might be able to save yourself a few years of pushing through and practicing hard, if you can find a woman who is willing to initiate you to the level of consciousness she has already attained!

By Jenny Jnani Hale

Yogassage

Join Grace and a team of massage therapists for a 75-minute guided yin yoga practice with the added experience of massage techniques and adjustments. This evening promises even extra goodness because Grace will be joined by the sounds of the sweet didgeridoo.

Now with fewer spots available to ensure more hands-on attention per yogi!

$40 | 15% off for VIP Members
Space is Limited.
REGISTER HERE
*Limited waitlist available. Cancellations with 24 hours or more notice are eligible for refund (account credit only). Contact management at [email protected]